Tag: personally

Sometimes I forget there are actually like five people I know irl who follow my blog. Mostly the ones who know my friends and family are never active, but, you know. My venting at high moments of stress when things feel over the top here probably aren’t the best sometimes given that. I don’t mind when I know I can’t actually hurt anyone or say bad things about people that anyone else would know, forgetting that this isn’t exactly the case.

thoughtfulfangirling:

Just had a marvelous time doing Book Club for Her Body and Other Parties by Carmen Machado. There’s so much going on in those stories and so much to talk about. It was great getting to hear other people’s takes and getting some clarification on things that were obscure to me. Enough has been shit in my life lately that I wanted to post something positive. I did feel strangely drained afterward but given all that I’ve been going through, isn’t all that surprising. I’m really good at being social, generally speaking, but I am inherently an introvert. So glad I’ve been getting back into books though. It’s felt really great. The hardest part about books is that they just lack the fandom. At least on Tumblr. So this was just so wonderful. ^‿^

Guess who isn’t sleeping despite waking up the morning before super tired and only managing to get more exhausted as the day went on.

Yup. MEEE!

I drifted off for probably just under 40 minutes for a while. Now every time I get close to sleep, I get a sudden wave of… I dunno if energy is the right term. But I come back awake. Which is not normal for me. Usually once I fall asleep, I’m good to go.

Tomorrow is not gonna be fun.

neurodiversitysci:

cannibal-wiki:

something that people really dont understand about ADHD is that we dont “jump from one idea to the next”

we have very fast, very associative minds that connect ideas. we have a train of thought, it just goes WAY faster than yours!

example: im thinking about dogs. that makes me think of pitbulls, which makes me think of an animal planet show i enjoy. the show connects to tv in general, which makes me think of my favorite cartoon. i associate my favorite cartoon with art and animation, and i wind up thinking about shading techniques.

TL;DR: having ADHD is kinda like playing a lifelong game of 7 Degrees of Kevin Bacon

“having ADHD is like playing a lifelong game of 7 degrees of Kevin Bacon” is one of the most accurate and easy to understand things I’ve ever heard about ADHD.

I don’t have a lot of the other ADHD symptoms, so I don’t think I have it, but my brain is like this so much. It’s not at all infrequent that I say something after my brain has made several leaps and the people around me are like ‘…what? What are you talking about??’

But with my partner, he’s generally really good about following. When I do this, there’s like a pause as his brain calculates what path my brain likely went down, and it’s a nearly seamless conversation.

But often enough he just gives me a blank look and I have to contextualize my comment and he’s just like ???? How did you get to that? XD I wish I could remember the one from the other day because it was so random I asked him if he really wanted to know how I’d gotten there. No clue tho!

To be fair, I’m generally really good at not jumping when I’m with strangers. But it’s like, as soon as I let myself relax and get comfortable… ¯_(ツ)_/¯

I will say, as much as this has been and continues to take out of me, I have such wonderful friends. Everyone that I’ve talked to about the upcoming intervention with and the troubles going on have been ready to leap into Ultra Friend Mode and do I want to make plans to hang and recover with them? I’m generally the type who wants to be alone when I’m feeling really bad, but it’s still so sweet. And during mid level moments would be super refreshing.

Even talked with my ex last night as we were close the last time I went through this, and she told me to just say the word and I can fly over to her or she could fly to me. It’s always helped me in rough times how my support network all waves their hands and reminds me they’re there. 🧡

My dash refuses to be in order and I’m so sick of it. Scrolling down, I see a post. Scroll past that one, and it’s a reply to the post above. Keep reminding my settings Best Stuff First should be off but the posts remained with the older one before the newer. 😤