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indiasierrabravo:
No but I mean. I hate that I’m so easy to read, I hate that I can’t pretend better to act normal or whatever. I hate myself so much.
That’s bullshit though, you feel uncomfortable because society hates real feelings, they only like clean pretty pretend ones, but if you ask me to choose between someone who shows real feelings and someone who pretends they’re emotionless to look more ‘normal’ or whatever, I’ll take the former, cuz the latter scares me and I distrust them.
Like ‘mature people contain themselves’ WHO SEZ???
(and I don’t see the point of rules about which ways of showing feelings are correct and which are not. As long as you’re not hurting anyone, it’s all fucking human. )
But I mean I know that feeling, I hate that I can’t hold it in when it’s real bad, but fuck it it’s not my fault other people subscribe to ridiculous standards. I do wish I was better at it too because emotions=danger and vulnerability. AND YET.
As someone who tends to close off when feeling intense emotions, I’m all aboard the ‘society sucks for hating emotions’ train. It’s so fucking unhealthy that displays of true emotion are some sort of weird taboo or ‘immature’ thing. What is more mature than being honest about how you feel? ¯_(ツ)_/¯ I’m sorry you all feel that way. That really sucks. I definitely feel like I would too if I wasn’t generally able to hide negative emotions, though I’ve actually been trying to do it a little less with soome success.
So yeah. Just came here to say society sucks but then rambled. Sorry.
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