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Ugh, this is terrible. Tmi warning. Tryying to eat marginally better. Adding in less greasy proteins and more veggies. Apparently my body is unsure about this and I’ve now spent over an hour in the bathroom (not all at once). I mean, it could be the ice cream I indulged in, but ice cream hasn’t done this to me before. Maybe the mix. But I feel miserable and gross and I just want to go to bed 
Veggies are gross and they make me feel gross 😛
kimbureh said: if you change your diet, your body might need some time to adjust (enzymes/digestive bacteria etc). also, if eating veggies makes u feel gross, that’s connecting negative feeling to eating them, which will lead to more negative expierences while eating them… what i am saying, is, dont force urself, it’s not healthy either if u have to beat up urself over it (and i say that as a fruits and veggie lover with a weakness for french fries)
Part 2: in case u didnt need advice, but a few compassionate words: changing diets is a hard thing. it happens gradually and omg i know the feeling of wanting to do better but not having the energy to do so. the truth is, changing routines is not easy and takes effort.
Ugh. I know this, I really do. I don’t know why I just dove in. Actually, I do. (But for the record, both advice and reassurance was welcome. 🙂 Thank you for your comments.)
Story Time! (Kimbureh, I won’t hold it against you if you don’t read this. I’m getting it off my chest)
So, I’m at my top weight, which isn’t that heavy honestly. 150lbs seems to be my average at the moment when 130lbs used to be my norm. I’ve never eaten really well, and since leaving college, I really don’t get much exercise.
My sister is a health nut. Sometime last summer, she started getting extra worried about my health and eating and pushed me to incorporate Shakeology into my diet. I hate veggies, and this was supposed to give me veggie servings. Over time, I worked it into my routine, and also over time, I’ve gained this way. Now, my sister insists that without changing anything about your diet, Shakeologoy is supposed to make you lose weight, and it has for others in my family. I can’t help but think that for me, it was added calories, so I gained.
But like, so what right? I’m getting more healthy by adding in all these nutrients and vitamins and shit, so if my goal is health and not thin, then all should be good.
I finally told her what I suspect about Shakeology, and she started talking about finding other things for me (after extensively scrutinizing my habits and what might have changed etc). And like, I’m really kind of annoyed, because she’s so insistent that her pushing people to be healthy is her #1 goal — that it’s not about losing weight. She’s got some stuff to work through.
But in talking about my current diet, everyone’s been like ‘Yeah… you eat pretty bad.’ I don’t even understand what ‘healthy’ eating completely consists of at least within what I like since I’m so damn picky and I’m sure af not doing ‘all non processed’ like my sister tries to.
(don’t get me wrong, I love my sister and we are so close and we get along super well, this is just our current head butting/my annoyance)
So like, fine. I’m going to try to eat better. A part of me hopes I don’t even lose weight, because I think it’s bullshit. I’m getting older. My metabolism is slowing. When you add extra calories without exercise, you’re likely going to gain right? ¯_(ツ)_/¯ ¯_(ツ)_/¯
Looks like I might have hit it too hard though. Weird thing is, both of these days I didn’t even do the Shakeo because I only do those on work days and I’m almost out, so it shouldn’t be a veggie overdose. I don’t even know. ヘ（´ｏ｀）ヘ
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