I need to go to bed. And I will soon. But I’m so angry rn ya’ll. I’m usually able to remain pretty detached when shit goes down. I will feel bad and be angry, but I’ll still be detached from it. I can’t really describe it. 

But I’m not detached today. 

I’m angry. I’m tired. 

And I appreciate the sentiment in all these posts that are pointing out the goodness in humanity. But they make me angry too. On man with a gun killed 50 queer and(or) latinx people. He did it in a time in my country where people are literally equating trans women with rapsists and assaulters. When legislators  are trying to pass bills legalizing discrimination. 

I’m not just angry about the 0rlando shooting. 

0rlando was the giant fucking cherry on the top of this fucking garbage pile of anti-queer rhetoric and 2nd amendment die-hards. 

And my country is going to make it all about the shooter. It’s a narrative that suit’s them so nicely. Blame it on something that seems ‘foreign’ to so many. Separate themselves from him. Our legislators and bigots aren’t to blame, it’s them. NO! You created this atmosphere! While the shooter is the scum of the earth, he’s honestly just a small part—which makes it that much more terrifying. Like, the scale of it is… outstanding. But is anyone surprised? Given what we’ve been seeing?? 

ONE person, internalizing the TOXIC shit by people in power used the “”FREEDOM”” these shitty leaders assert is the most important freedom caused severe injuries and/or death of over 50 queer people. 

And honestly, the 1sis thing seems like a flailing attempt at attention or misdirection. But even if it wasn’t, it doesn’t change all the shit that’s been going on. The same people who now pretend sympathy and prayers. 

So please forgive me if it’s hard to see the good in humanity right now or if I fail to be polite about issues of injustice.