kimbureh replied to your post:Ugh, this is terrible. Tmi warning. Tryying to eat…
over all this fuss, try not to forget what *you* want. so far you wrote quite a bit about other people’s expectation, and that can be a trap. my health and fitness goals were influenced by other people’s opinions for years and it wasn’t easy to see that because it can happen in so subtle ways. “of course i want to be healthy and fit!”, yah, but at what cost? and more important: is that self-forcing mindset worth it? don’t i lose freedom of will in the process?

I’m such in a place where I don’t even understand what works and what doesn’t that I can’t fully grasp what I want. I’d like to eat more healthy. I don’t want to get sick young, and I’ve had digestive issues in the past (I’m typically in a perpetual state of backed up and take fiber pills regularly to try and deal with this). I’d like to work out more, but I’d want to do something like a martial art or something that could make me feel accoplished in a skill or something, but that can be pricey and take time, and on a night shift and one income… too much work/cost to implement atm. 

Thank you though. I totally agree with you. And honestly, I have been at my top weight for months now and the only times it upsets me is when I can’t fit into most of my jeans. (I have like two that fit comfortably. I gain in my hips/butt first.) But I was thinking about how it could also be that I’m 27 now and should start making my diet a priority now and yeah. ¯_(ツ)_/¯