it’s actually not like sleep paralysis. I actually wake up inbetween dreams, but I fall asleep again too fast to clearly form the thought ‘I wanna get up’.
Also the dream trap of a sleep paralysis is fuzzy and unclear, it’s a dream too close and too encompassing to see it clearly. It’s like a cushion muffling you. These ‘dream-rows’ I experience now are far more frequent than the sleep paralysis and also are the dreams crystal clear and detailed. I dream SO much every night, I can discern all the details, even the faces feel much more real.
Tonight for example I dreamt about two Narwhals swimming under the water surface. At first I couldn’t really see because they swam so fast and the water was moving. But then I put on my glasses and I could see every detail of their skin texture and the water etc.
I also dreamt I was organizing my dreams from before (after waking up shortly and falling asleep again) in comic panels and it struck me as a difficult and nonsensical task even in the dream, so I woke up for a second.
When I was finally truely awake I had to think about Dr Who’s weeping angels, cuz they used to haunt me like a trauma. As I write this I can feel them creep up on me and I have to look around. As I got up though, in the dark bedroom, I was like ‘ffs I don’t have time for this’ and opened the shutter.
I think it’s like a trade, actually: I experience these dream trap rows for about a week and a half now, a time in which I almost didn’t feel depressed or anxious in social situations!
And I have been to parties, meeting people and always dealing with people I don’t know and it was fun and entertaining and WOW I can do this?? Also I started painting Bob Ross-y landscape in OIL and I painted Gouache BACKGROUNDS which I wanted to do for like, TEN YEARS?? Also I generally start being productive again. I cleaned my studio, the whole kitchen, I just work if I want to because I can?? I continued drawing the warboy comic??
So if I trade crappy sleep for being a productive and socially capable person I think it’s a pretty awesome deal???
Those are some strange dreams! Sorry it’s crappy and the trade off for productivity. You deserve good sleep and productivity!!
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